So...I worked today (whatever that means) Basically, I just drove around, got gas and energy drinks...I'm really hyper right now. Party in reed city on saturday. With a bunch of hicks. But..there will be alcohol. I don't think anyone will go with me. Katie said she would. But if anyone ever reads this. Come with me, You'll get food at my sisters house, and alcohol at Adam's house. Seriously.
So I'm sitting here. Drinking beer and wondering if I'm one of "those" people. I could be. However I've been one of those people for about 3 years now.
I'm not getting kicked out of my house thankfully.
I'm going to school the end of this month.
I don't feel complete though. Probably never will. Even though I have friends I don't think I've ever felt more alone in my life.
Maybe I just need to distance myself from people for a while. I just feel empty.
Completely empty. Not even Sad. It's one of the weirdest feelings I have ever felt.
This is probably why I'm trying to find a job and going to get training.
I don't want anyone right now. I just want to sit here, watch cartoons, and think. Loneliness might suck. But it's better than feeling left out or unwanted.
I feel so weird whenever I am around my friends now. I'm nervous. Never know what to say. Tell the stupidest stories.
I was watching the nasa channel today and I guess they believe that the arctic ice caps could be melting because there is black soot and carbon on the ice caps from southeast asia. Apparently it appeared after some haze storm out of asia.
I think it may just be speculation, even if the soot and everything makes sense...it's from asia.
In other news:
I'm a semi-trekkie, Travis and Alex Angus won their argument with me.
I wonder how many grammatical errors I have.
done with smoking cigarettes, and drinking for a while, Hurristo
so linden is weird and she knows she creeps me out
my cat jumped in my bath today...fucking weirdo
i feel optimistic about my future yeah i used the word future i don't really know what i was doing there for a while but i wasn't really looking out for myself and i wasn't thinking about anything
it's not like any of this really matters to anyone except for me
i'm just very optimistic right now and no one could change that not even eric flanders
This is a great picture of Brian on his 21st birthday.
What was won is lost. And the cost is rising. Pride in the city and its horizons killed by the slow destruction of places to live now the only function that reaps rewards is profit and the making of it.
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calm
Lemons
sick
hm...
This should've been over the first time.
weird
awake
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